tales of a princess

Welcoming the New Year: post-hibernation

2007-02-17T19:20:00.000-08:00

Yey, 2007! After a four-month hiatus from blogging, I'm back! With renewed relationships and an optimistic heart.

I thank everyone whom I had been able to experience Y2006 with --- acquaintances, officemates, friends and family. I also welcome all those who would want to continue experiencing life with me. :)

So goodluck and see you around!

My Tatay and I (a very late entry for August)

2006-09-24T06:21:00.000-07:00

Welcome back, my dear Lolo Inggo! Coming from a 3-month vacation with my Tita Susan, Tito Gilly, John-john and Dominic in the States, Tatay looked well and very happy. He plans to go back when John-john graduates from junior high next year. We heard countless tales of his US trip through toothless smiles (whenever he takes off his dentures) and with total excitement in his voice. Tita Imee, who came with him in the trip said that Tatay was very "spoiled" during his time there, we might have to call him "Baby Inggo" now. :)

I'm happy for Tatay. But I'm happier to be with him again. See our lovely smiles?

I pray to the stars

2006-07-29T09:43:00.000-07:00

I do not adulate Paris Hilton nor do I fawn at her feet...but her first single has really got me hooked! It keeps me sane during the back-breaking and mind-wracking hours of work and it never fails to bring forth dreamy and happy visions in my mind. This, despite the tacky video, mind you (peace, mommy angel). :)

I don't mind spending some time
Just hanging here with you
Cuz I don't find too many guys
That treat me like you do
Those other guys all wanna take me for a ride
But when I walk their talk is suicide
Some people never get beyond their stupid pride
But you can see the real me inside
And I'm satisfied, oh no, ohh

Even though the gods are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mine
I can make you nice and naughty
Be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul and body
Let's see what this love can do
Baby i'm perfect for you
My love, ohh oh

I could be your confidante
Just one of your girlfriends
But I know that love's what you want
If tomorrow the world ends
Why shouldn't we be with the one we really love?
Now tell me who have you been dreaming of
At night at home? oh no, ohh

Even though the gods are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mine
I can make you nice and naughty
Be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul and body
Let's see what this love can do
Baby i'm perfect for you

Excuse me for feeling
This moment is critical
Might be me feeling
It could get physical, oh no, no no

Even though the gods are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mine

I can make you nice and naughty
Be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul and body
Let's see what this love can do
Let's see what this love can do
Baby I'm perfect for you
Baby I'm perfect for you

Even though the gods are crazy

Even though the stars are blind

Even though the gods are crazy

And yes, I have someone specific in mind whenever I listen to Paris Hilton sing.
The stars might be blind but I do hope he's not...

So fate, I'm counting on you...

Something to celebrate

2006-03-11T07:08:00.000-08:00

March 12, 2006 marks my sixth month in GMPI. I will now be a regular employee in GMA's workforce. Yahoo! :)

Nostalgia and Excitement

2006-01-15T22:32:00.000-08:00

Exactly a year ago, I was still in Europe anticipating my return to the country. Two weeks to go and I'll be back in Manila! But today, after the events of 2005, I find myself longing for those stress-free, TV and book-filled days and a full night's sleep for three whole months.

My life was turned upside down last year --- I let go of my beloved show, got two new jobs, got addicted to a band, earned the cold shoulder from my two best friends, became close friends with two others, and got hooked on a vice (which I plan to end this February).

But all's well that ends well. Friendships have already been patched and strengthened. Thank God.

Now, at the start of 2006, everything's as it should be. And I'm confident of more good things to come:

Quality time / Activities with family and friends
Our events management business kicking off and bringing us moolah (hehe)
Getting better at work.

I end this blog with a prayer for you (anyone who gets to read this) and me:

Lord, thank You for the trials You have given us, for these have made us better characters. I know that everytime we experience difficulty, we only need to call on Your name. And I am confident that You will heed our prayers, giving us what we need.

Thank You for bringing us life and people to love. They are after all, our reason for living.

I am sure that You will be showering us with Your infinite love and providing us with more blessings this year.

Amen.

Possessed!

2005-11-19T01:00:00.000-08:00

No, this is not a review of the Exorcist movie but rather, a description of myself this November.

I am out of control. I haven't been "PAT" for the past two weeks. I'm not liking it but I can't help it.

I'm hurt and angry; easily offended and unmindful of other people.

I am not focused.

Am only motivated by one thing.

And it's driving me crazy.

I want to stop but I can't seem to.

I wanna scream but my voice is muffled.

I wanna cry but my ducts are dry.

Let me return to how I used to be.

Soon, before I am ruined.

*akalain mo yun, nakasulat tuloy ako ng tula!
**Potah kasing _*_ yan eh!

To my friends, please read on...

2005-11-09T04:45:00.000-08:00

November 8, 2005 / Tuesday

My friendster horoscope:
Focus on relationships that provide you with a satisfying intellectual connection.

Dear everyone, the floor is now open for comments, suggestions, and violent reactions... :)

a different birthday

2005-10-20T08:30:00.000-07:00

2005 has been a truly exciting and "dangerous" year for me. I have two stalkers, both of which were my former relationship partners. Twice this year, my bag and belongings had been snatched from me.

But still I "live," especially since God has also bestowed immense blessings on me:

1. a challenging and extremely rewarding job
2. more bonding sessions/night outs with friends (HS, College, and IMB friends)
3. new friends at work (very helpful also)
4. a very nice boss
5. a loving and supportive family
6. making a difference in other people's lives
7. courage
8. Papa going to Qatar (I am very sad about this and I'm already missing him but I know this is beneficial for my younger siblings, for their continuing education)

Most of all October 8, 2005 has proved to be a deviation from my usual birthdays, a happy one at that. I spent my 23rd natal day in DAVAO for the Kapuso Fans Day! It was my first time in Mindanao and getting there is one of my goals in life (ang babaw ba? hehe. nakapunta na rin ako Aldevinco, kahit 30 mins. lang). I was able to treat my family dinner, in a slightly expensive restaurant, while receiving the same treatment from Mommy & Daddy, Don Hen & a humongous dessert at the Peninsula Manila (the Pen pal!).

Now, I am looking forward to our Disney Princess Party at McDonalds (with Angel)!

*toast* Here's to 2005! :)

on getting my life back

2005-09-24T17:20:00.000-07:00

I am satisfied with the way my life is "happening" right now. I'm motivated. And I'm HAPPY!

Each day, for the past two weeks has me learning about a lot of things (career-wise) and truly experiencing life. Working Girl in the morning and Party Girl at night. :)

My gimik/bonding with friends schedule: Sept. 19-26, 2005

Mon, Sept. 19 - Pamamanhikan/Family get-together sa Bulacan (by my cousin)
Orange and Lemons (ONL) at Conspiracy --- jologan with the band after performance,
kasi birthday ni Dani Mei. hahaha.

Tue, Sept. 20 - Saw Sky High at Greenhills Promenade with my perfect friends, Angel & Koryn
(ang gwapo ni Warren Peace! hay...)

Wed, Sept. 21 - *** REST ***

Thu, Sept. 22 - Brownman Revival (BMR) at 70's Bistro

Fri, Sept. 23 - BMR at Xaymaca. (brought my sister Rica with us, 1st time niya to see and hear them play live, enjoy! The only black mark: call from nature...a lot of times, in fact! In between sets and after the show, sobrang hassle.)
Post-mortem sa apartment with Koryn & Angel

Sat, Sept 24 - Dress Fitting for Kuya Randy's wedding
Lunch with Kuya, Mommy, & my smart-pretty-young cousins Ruthie and Rachel

O diba? Hectic social schedule. Yun nga lang, wiped out na ang funds ko, baka hindi ko na masustain ang same lifestyle next week. Pero db, what are friends for? Hehe.
With life, as is always the case, we must all have our share of the "downs" or things which cause our melanchoia. First week of October, Papa leaves for Qatar. He'll be working there from then on. He won't be here on my birthday...
:( I miss him already.

At least, I'll be in Davao that day...(first time in Mindanao!!!)

- Pat, laging masaya at malungkot.

things really do happen for a reason

2005-09-08T03:43:00.000-07:00

Yes, they do! After a two month's stint at EHDI, I'm finally going back to where I really belong.

I learned a lot in Emerald (no stir!) --- Microsoft Excel, Sales, and how not to trust people. Most offices are unlike IMB, where you must be careful with sharing stuff about yourself. They might use it against you.

Emerald actually helped me get to where I'll be working, starting next week. It equipped me with the necessary skills required for the job. If not for EHDI, I might not have gotten the position.

Thank you, Lord. You really do make everything possible...in Your own time of course.

moving on...

2005-08-25T21:38:00.000-07:00

I know, I know, I'm beginning to resemble a broken record with my whining about work (uy, di ako si Salmonella ha.). After all, I've already vented it out so enough of the complaints. Saka na-daot ko na si Sum, ok na yun. Hehe. Peace.

To celebrate for:
1. Family reunion over the weekend (sort of) due to Nanay's 1st death anniversary (we miss u, Nanay Vening...)
2. A new book, "the Romanov Prophecy"
3. Spent time with my IMB family & friends.

There, I'm smiling now. :)

p.s. Saw Ms. JJ, the new Pantene girl! Totoo nga ang chismis! Love u, ma'am.

furious!!!

2005-08-17T03:12:00.000-07:00

I am mad!
I am furious!!
I am angry!!!

Two of the reasons why I left IMB: one, for a slightly (a meager 2k) better pay and basic employment benefits. Two, for fixed office hours (9am-6pm) --- I was thinking of this as lesser working hours and more rest. I was wrong. I have to sleep early because on weekdays, my mornings should start early becaause of work. Before, with IMB, I could go out every night and not feel as tired during the day when I work. I also get to sleep in the car en route to the shoot location.

As my previous blog says, my big career change has made me thoroughly disappointed.

I can't stand being tied down to the office. I need to get out once in awhile (field work) so I schedule half days and client calls or as we call these, OB - Official Business.

Last August 15, I received a BAD surprise. All those hours away from the office is equivalent to a pay cut! F**K!!! With IMB, we usually had three days of rest before we work again on our next story. The best thing about it is, we didn't have to go to the office and we'd still get our whole salary, without any cuts! Well...except for the 10% withholding tax.

I hate EHDI! I hate my work there! This recent incident has made me realize that it actually defeats my purpose for changing jobs. Naku, one can never be really perfect. (Right, koryn & angel?)

I really long to work for IMB again and be with the best group of people and friends. *haay...*

melancholia

2005-08-07T21:06:00.000-07:00

A month & 8 days with my new job and I'm already bored, lacking zest, and reminiscing the glorious IMB days. "Glorious" now that I'm not producing stories every other week for IMB...hehe. But seriously, I miss GMA --- the working environment, the show, and of course my IMB family.

Today, they're having a team building in Caliraya and I am dying with envy! I know I would be thinking about it for the whole day until tomorrow, because that's when they get home; after having a wonderful time! They would be wearing their bathing suits now, eating sumptuous food, laughing, and bonding, and...ok Pat, enough already! For now... :p (Last 2003, before I came into the show, they have just finished a team building in laguna. This year, 2005, after I left the show, they're having another one in Laguna also...huhuhu...)

I actually thought of resigning from my current job so I could go with them and attend the team building. But that would really be immature so I didn't. I have to stand by my decision and live it.

Everybody's asking if I'm happy/enjoying my job now, and I would always mouth the same reply, "No, I'm not enjoying. I'm not happy. I'm bored. I wanna go back..." But some things are stopping me from leaving Emerald Headway:

1) I just submitted my requirements (TIN, Pag-ibig) and the company's handling my application for these.
2) I'm waiting and praying that my application in another GMA department would be successful. I wouldn't want to go back to IMB, only to leave it for another position in another department, albeit in the same company. That would be disrespectful.
3) My mother. Need I say more?

If I'm really meant for IMB, then things would fall into place sooner or later. The universe would conspire to make it happen. :)

I, the soap star

2005-07-08T11:56:00.000-07:00

Daig ko pa si Judy Ann, Claudine, at Angel sa mga drama ko sa buhay. Lahat yata ng kamalasan sa buhay, na-experience ko na. Ang lupeeet talaga ng FATE ko. Sana sa heaven or sa next life ko hindi na ganito...

October 2004 - lost my wallet in Quiapo.
June 2005 - lost my wallet in the IMB cubicle.

July 8, 2005. 10:00 p.m.

My bag got snatched earlier this evening in Balintawak while we were about to enter NLEX. The assailant was able to run away with my palm pilot, 2005 organizer, GMA media ID, mobile phone, and wallet with my ATM card.
This is WHAT I get for being a "dependable" daughter...or perhaps it's already my bad karma. Anyhow, I would like to get my hands on that S.O.B., beat the hell out of him and put him in jail! I wish...
I was accompanying my mother and her friends (my two ninangs) to Bulacan when we stopped along the highway because of the bus in front of us and a car at our side who was trying to get us off the middle lane. Suddenly, a young man in white shirt and jersey shorts hung onto our vehicle. He was trying to open my door but it was locked. I was really surprised when he reached over the car window (which was open due to the broken aircon) and took hold of my bag. We both pulled for it until the contents fell out onto the highway. The bag also fell out. He then picked up my personal effects while the car was still on the move. It was still moving when I opened my door and jumped out to follow the snatcher. Unfortunately he was already gone when I reached the incident site. Meanwhile a man was holding my bag and picking up my other stuff. He gave these all back to me. I found out that the S.O.B. was able to run off with my palm pilot, wallet with ATM card, mobile phone, 2005 organizer, and Media ID plus proxy card.

Syet. Potah. Devastating.

Can my villain kill me now, please?

Lord, ayoko na po maging soap star. Suko na po ako...

a big leap of faith

2005-06-09T05:25:00.000-07:00

Last book read: "The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho

It has taught me about reading omens & learning from these.

1) Mama keeps nagging me to resign from my highly stressful and hazardous job.
2) I was suddenly envious of my college batchmates/friends who didn't go into TV work but are very happy with their current (8-5) jobs and are receiving higher pay every month.
3) An employment opprotunity in a different industry.

I believe God is trying to tell me something. He's giving me a chance to know where I really belong (office or production). And I will take all of these into heart.

There would be no what-ifs. I would rather regret something that I did than something which I did not do.

I've already spoken to my boss and will soon be giving in my resignation letter.

I am sad. I will be leaving a show that I love to pieces...and a family too.

But I am also excited to learn and experience my new job.

Is this truly my fate?

2005-06-02T18:45:00.000-07:00

What is it with me and beater-stalker-type guys?!

Am I destined to keep on running into them, making them part of my life, and then keep on ejecting them from it?

Woe is me.

*sniff sniff*

TATAY

2005-05-27T02:00:00.000-07:00

I found out, just last night that my lolo, whom i call "Tatay" has a rare kind of cancer. He has a tumor in his chest according to the test results.

Tatay is 80 years old. He wouldn't be able to survive a major operation, the doctors say.

Other options would be chemotherapy or cobalt for his treatment. But again, his body might not welcome these types of medication.

I find my family deliberating between providing health care or simply leaving it to God and to time.

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

I love my Tatay.

Nanay died last year (August) of Alzheimer's.

I wouldn't be able to take it if he passes away a year after. It would be too soon.

They took care of me when I was a child; we have a deep attachment for each other. Having lost Nanay has truly broken my heart, inspite of the fact that she was already diagnosed with her sickness a good ten years back.

The thought of losing Tatay is slowly cutting through my soul...

I hope we could give him the most appropriate treatment.

Spending time with him would also be a priority. My memories of him and with him are still not enough to tide me over until I grow old and weary, myself. Perhaps it is because of the knowledge that his life on this Earth is nearing its end. I refuse to let him go...not just yet. I need him still.

Everytime we visit, upon arriving and before leaving, I always tell Tatay that I love him.

Tay, when you first saw me and held me in your arms after I came into the world, I already loved you. Up until your last breath while I hold you in my arms, I will be whispering - I love you, Tatay Inggo.

"plastic," anyone?

2005-05-23T16:56:00.000-07:00

I was proud of the IMB family.

I thought we had it all --- close friendships as well as harmonious & effective working relationships. I was wrong.

I thought we were different from the other shows since we genuinely love each other and we enjoy working as a group. We had unity and camaraderie. Most importantly, we had transparency and we were open to critique & talk to one another.

I didn't expect that some people in the show would forego our friendships and talk about us behind our backs. They didn't have the courage to talk to us about it. Or they could have given us the cold shoulder if they truly abhor our "maarte" behavior. Instead, they faced us with sweet smiles & warm hugs. To pretend that everything was ok is just too much. If you hate us, tell us. We won't stab you in the back...er...I mean we won't bite!

We were deceived. We were betrayed.

We were family.

They call us the "mean girls."
I call them the "plastics!"

a streak of dementia

2005-05-20T14:40:00.000-07:00

My bangs have grown longer. It has been irritating me for the whole day.
After cut-to-cut editing, I decided to cut it.
IMB cubicle.Facing the mirror and talking with angel, I performed the deed.
Every instant reaction was a negative one, well...understandably so.
But I love my shorter bangs, though it really seems disastrous (public conception).
Without regret nor remorse, I cheerfully sport my new bangs. I feel good about it.
Plus, it grows on people. Hehe. Koryn and Angel both agree that I am now a bjork look-alike. They have both accepted that it kinda suits me. Thanks gurls. *twinkle, twinkle smile*

Other people might laugh when they see me. But it's okay. I'm happy.

the procrastinator

2005-05-17T13:33:00.000-07:00

I'm really sad. I haven't been able to post my blog for our good friend, Reden dela Merced who passed away last April. The text has been in my Palm for the past weeks; I just couldn't seem to find the time to encode it. I keep putting it off for the next day, the next week, or even the next month. Busy days and nights are my usual justification, which I know is wrong.

"Never a day without a line" - I envy the people who embody this principle. They are the ones who make it a point to 'write' each day as part of their routine. I have friends who need a daily dose of updating their blogs or simply checking their friendster accounts. I could never be like them but I wish I could be.

And I KNOW that wishing and hoping wouldn't get me there. *frown*

for Mothers' Day 2005

2005-04-24T01:55:00.000-07:00

Ayoko ng makulit.

Makulit ang aking ina kaya lagi kaming nag-aaway.

Wala akong pasensya…

Palagi kaming nagkakasigawan.

Pero kahapon, aking nadiskubre na kaya ko naman palang magpasensiya…kung talagang susubukan.

Dalawang gabi na akong walang tulog dahil sa trabaho. Sa ikatlong gabi, kailangan kong maghost sa reunion nina Mama. Galit na galit ako kasi mas gusto kong matulog.

Nagrereklamo ako kay Papa habang papunta kami doon.

Pero nang makita ko na si Mama, hindi ko kinayang awayin siya dahil alam kong mahalaga ang gabing yun para sa kanya.

Huminga ako ng malalim at nagsabi, “Ma, kung hindi lang kita mahal, natulog na lang sana ako…”

Ma, Advance Happy Mothers’ Day!!!

my e-journal

2004-08-20T23:51:00.000-07:00

knowing koryn is equivalent to having and experiencing a lot of "firsts."

now, she has introduced me to my 'first' electronic journal - my blog. one that i'm hoping is better than my handwritten journals which i've always started but never had the opportunity to write on its last page.

at least now i won't have those last pages to worry about... :)